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[faebysitting]

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[faebysitting]

You have learned that far earlier than most do, haven't you? The fact that everyone leaves, one way or another. It's a terrible realization to come to. Only two options come with it: to adapt or to let it tear you apart from the inside out.

[ Is he even thinking before he types anymore? Really, maybe he should set his device down, think about it for a few minutes. Instead... ]

Making connections. Genuine ones. That has been difficult for me to do for a while now, after a time in my life where I was first finally coming to terms with that realization myself. I would consider you one of those genuine connections I've been able to make after.

It has never mattered to me whether we're separated. You are still my friend. And yet...

[ Okay, tear the bandage off in one go if you're going to do it... ]

I haven't been honest with you. There is no V or S, Gloomurai. A cliche and overused trope, I know, to ask about a 'friend', but I've worried that, somehow, this will all end if I dared bring this up.

[ Keep it on the one topic, and it'd be fine, right? right. Maybe he could knock out ONE sense of guilt here, forget the rest. ]

[flameinthedarkness]

[Wait. Hold on.

DID IDIA REALLY FALL FOR THE TROPE?! OMGGGGGGGGGGGGG that's CRINGE! He staring at his screen for awhile before slumping in his chair, unable to believe it... and yet... he's living out a trope. Huh. Heh. Ok then. A soft 'pfft' from between his teeth, caught in that moment. Before looking back to MuscleRed's words. The concern he can read in them. And realizing the weight that must had been on his friend's shoulders by trying to figure this out but also not tell the truth. That's gotta suck.]

guess i know why that trope works now. that or i failed my perception roll. or u crit on it lol.

i dont recall u ever wronging me MuscleRed. or you leaving. [If anything it's the reverse for Idia... which... now he's feeling bad about it with MuscleRed feeling bad about himself! WTF?!] last i remembered we were supposed to raid and

[Oh. Guess Idia can't... or shouldn't avoid it.] and something happened to me. i got taken. not to Duplicity but another place. just yoinked me away. im the one who left u. not u leaving me

i didnt even get to say goodbye. and by the time i got back u were no longer OL. thought u had moved on from me. didnt blame u. i vanished on u.

[faebysitting]

[ … Oh.
They were not ‘their’ Gloomurai or Musclered. The times they came from were different, for sure. Did that matter…? Not really - if it was that close to him not being online anymore, then it’s likely that was their very last raid. Close to the same time, a different world. Still the same people, the same bonds that they’d made. ]

Here I thought I’d been too obvious. You must have critical failed that perception roll, my friend.

[ Would it have been worse, had he not been able to say goodbye to Gloomurai? What would have changed? The ending of a friendship - was it better to be ghosted or to say goodbye? ]

I was always going to say goodbye. It was inevitable.

… We are not from the same place. That doesn’t change how I feel. I’m positive it’s close to when I would have needed to say goodbye, that you returned. That most of our memories align.

I didn’t explain anything to you. I’m not sure I even have the words to explain it now… but before I was brought here, I suddenly told you I was quitting gaming. I said goodbye as if all that time didn’t matter to me, when the very act of saying goodbye felt so very impossible, like saying goodbye to an old friend.

That’s why, when we found each other here… to have more time to spend, before I have to say goodbye again. I didn’t want to lose that. I still don’t. I’d no clue what you knew and didn’t… and whether you were ignoring it for the sake of having more time.

I was. Ignoring it, that is.

Maybe I should have just continued ignoring it?

[flameinthedarkness]

why i suck as social but rule at gaming

[Idia sits quietly as he reads, going through what MuscleRed had done, what he had done to his Gloomurai. And just... how did it feel? Should Idia feel upset or hurt? That after their time MuscleRed just vanished with a 'bye' and nothing else? He's not sure, maybe because he isn't that same kid anymore. He's been through more than his already weird life had fated for him; the Train, his Overblot, Duplicity. Idia's been surrounded by loss. But also friends. Family. Many gone now. Others appearing. Like MuscleRed.

So it comes back to that question; was he upset by learning this?]

i dont think i can answer this as your Gloomurai. How he would feel. Since im not him anymore. all i can answer is as someone who been through shit he hadn't. and for me. it fine. im not angry. or upset. i think im feeling how u r, happy to get a second chance.

so u dont owe me anything. all that repenting or bs i said earlier about V and S [Also why V and S? Huh.]

just keep playing games with me. that all i need. im happy with that. for however long we both have here.

we can ignore it if u want. idc either way. cause im not upset about it

[faebysitting]

[ Idia had changed a lot, hadn’t he? What he’d experienced differed from what he was meant to. Or, maybe, what he’d experienced was what was meant to happen. Either way… It’s strange, to feel pride for someone who a mere week ago he wouldn’t give a second thought about, but how can he not, knowing this this was also one of his closest friends? That he’s grown so much. ]

Neither of us can answer for the other “us”. What I can say… is that it doesn’t matter who we are.

I’ll continue to play games with you. To be here with you, for as long as we have.

You may not be “my” Gloomurai from home, but you are “my” Gloomurai here in Duplicity. In that way, nothing really changes.

[ This … was a relief. A piece that soothed part of his scattered mind. For how long, who knows? ]

Thank you. I know this was sudden. Too much has been going on recently. Enough that any little thing begins to eat at me. I appreciate you listening, putting up with my roundabout explanation, the eventual “confession” of my “crime”, and… your honesty, too.

I don’t care whether we pretend or not. Having it out there, knowing that you’re of the same mind. That’s enough for me.

[ There’s still the chance this could all fall apart. It might not. It might be fine. Or, the truth of his identity could be the last straw. For now, he’d keep the secret close to his chest.

Nothing needs to change. They could stay like this, forever. Until the inevitable comes knocking, until one of them leaves. ]

[flameinthedarkness]

heh that a good way to put it. we all just 'our' versions here. even if we not from the same version of the same world [Not if this MuscleRed got to say goodbye.

Good. It meant he lived.]

i'll take it tho. real happy to take it.

i mean when big stuff going on with city its so easy to just burst and wanna let it out. know i been doing more of that of late... and it not as bad as i thought it would be. i guess others seen me worse with that city has made me do wwwww

u feel better now it out? [To check. To fully check.]

[faebysitting]

That's for sure. It's been rather difficult to keep much hidden from those around. This city seems to have a way of breaking down much of what we know, forcing us to talk, to bond in other ways, whether we want to or not. [ Even then, there were lies. Secrets kept, held back. A life that not many were wholly aware of, forgotten to time. A life that shaped him in more ways than one.

A reason, to keep lying. Pretending. To enjoy the small moments as they come. And, for now... to let go of whatever feelings built up, that he harbors, and to focus on taking the time to enjoy this. Whatever may happen from here.

For all he knows, Idia might already be well aware of who was behind that name 'MuscleRed'. Might be keeping the same secret for his sake. Who knows? They could keep playing pretend, whatever the case may be. ]

A bit.
There's always something.

But this does help. Thank you, Gloomurai. You really are one of those I can count on. I hope to be someone you can count on as well in the days to come.

fin?

[flameinthedarkness]

[How would MuscleRed, Lilia, feel to know that he was the one person safe from that. That Idia wouldn't doxx him. Didn't want to find out if the other didn't want to present him with such knowledge? Idia could easily do it, here or back home. He just doesn't want to, he respects MuscleRed too much. If he was to suddenly learn who MuscleRed was?

Well, he's not sure what he would do. Even after this reveal. He really has no clue.]

yeah blah blah positive twist on it blah blah silver lining blah blah all that wwww

i hope so too. ty MuscleRed. Really.

ya!! here's a little bow to wrap it with~

[faebysitting]

Not to suddenly push all this mushy stuff aside, but...

Could you believe the recent update of Gun Riders? This event made me so mad, the mechanics were so difficult compared to the base game, with such little rewards. How do they feel it's fair for us to work so hard only for practically only 2 shards and some crumbs?

Not to mention the cards that released this round were absolutely nerfed on release...!!